Have you ever been praying and believing God for a miracle or a breakthrough, only to get slapped with the reality of whatever it was that you thought you could not endure? I remember years ago, when I was going through a divorce, how hard it was for me as a Christian to understand what God was doing in my life. Whenever my situation got as bad as it could get, it seemed that right at that moment, something else would go wrong and things would get worse. Finally in a moment of frustration, I cried out to God in anger, or shall we say I yelled a prayer at Him.
Okay, so maybe you have never yelled at God, but all I can tell you is this: He won’t leave you alone, even if you get angry with Him. God already knows that you are angry with Him. In fact, He might be waiting for you to recognize that you are angry with Him, so that He can heal you. He may be waiting for you to be honest enough talk to Him about it. (I recommend that you speak to Him according to His Word if you want a response though. Lol) Your Word-based argument with God could be your first step to understanding what is going on and a major step in the healing process.
“I don’t get it LORD!!” I began. “You said in your Word that the Blood of Jesus has paid the price for my sins, and You said that I have been forgiven, and You said this and You said that.” No response from God.
“I don’t understand, LORD!!” I continued. “You said in Your Word that Your anger was turned away from me because of my faith in Jesus, but LORD, I have to ask you this: ARE YOU SURE THAT YOU ARE NOT ANGRY WITH ME? YOU ARE ACTING LIKE YOU ARE ANGRY WITH ME ABOUT SOMETHING!!” Yep, there I was, angry with God for acting like He was angry with me. But then, the most amazing thing happened: God spoke to me in the midst of my anger, and shall we say, the quality of my prayer changed a little. He poured His compassion and love on me in a way that I had never experienced. He saw the wounds and He felt the pain. He saw the wounds. He comforted me in my struggle, He poured out the oil and the wine. Then, later, when I was calm and could handle the truth, He corrected me.
“Daughter,” I heard the LORD say, “I love you. Now, get your fist out of my face,” the LORD said. I felt a little like Job when he covered his mouth or Elijah covering His face. The fear of the LORD was upon me, which, by the way, is the beginning of wisdom (Job 28:28).
“You are right,” my Father continued. “The Blood of Jesus is sufficient. Your sins have been forgiven. You have been made righteous, and I am not angry with you. But I AM holy. That is the problem you are having. You are in the Presence of a holy God. I must teach you how to walk with Me (Psalm 32:8-9 KJV and Amplified).”
Righteousness is not the same thing as holiness. Holiness is actually the fruit of righteousness (Romans 6). Righteousness is a free gift obtained by faith in the Lord Jesus Christ (Romans 5). Righteousness is a status conferred upon us by God when we place our faith in Christ. When we become righteous, we then have the opportunity to become holy. We can choose to obey or to disobey. We can choose to be transformed and conformed to His Word or to keep walking in our own ways (Romans 12:1-2). If we are willing and obedient, we will enjoy the benefits of His kingdom (Deuteronomy 28), but if we are disobedient to His Word and stubbornly persist to be “ourselves”, then we will suffer the consequences.
If you would like to study this principle in more detail, read the scriptures listed here in the blogpost, and then go to the Weekly Bible Lessons tab and listen to the track entitled “Learning Obedience”. Your feedback and comments are always welcome.
Theresa Speight Toulmon, MD / Complete In Christ Ministries, Inc.